I never thought I’d ever – EVER – contemplate doing what I did yesterday.
What did my twisted mind think would be a good idea?
I researched the reasons why going a la natural is better than getting an epidural.
It’s like, all of a sudden, this no-pain-meds-during-childbirth idea is becoming more appealing (read: in the slightest, tiniest way possible) than just automatically opting for the drugs.
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?
I asked Tim awhile ago if he was nervous about the whole birthing process and he was all, “It’s not like you’ll be in pain, so…”
Seriously? That is THE WORST response you could possibly give to that question.
Telling me that your job is to get yelled at a lot is also probably not the right answer. I mean, really, you just have to STAND THERE while I do all of the work. My job versus yours? Not equal. Being called the reason I’m suffering an inordinate amount of pain is nowhere near on the same level as childbirth.
(sore subject…obviously…the men will never understand…)
I’ve yet to even tell Tim about my deranged research project and the teeny, tiny idea that maybe…just maybe…I could pull it off without any of the drugs. In the beginning, I was all, “Load me up with the goods the second I hit the hospital floor. STAT.”
Now, the no-pain-med-birth idea, at least during the whole childbirth process, has seeded itself in my brain.
As for meds versus no meds after all of that PUSH! drama…um…I really haven’t thought that far ahead. The farthest I got was, “I wonder if I could do the whole thing without the epidural…”
Maybe I want the challenge…or the experience…or bragging rights that I DID IT PAIN FREE (and I’d totally want a shirt proclaiming that). I have no idea what it is or why it even sounds remotely appealing to me…because why would someone put themselves in pain on purpose when technology has given them the option to *not* be in pain?
I don’t have an answer to that.
Now, dear husband, how about we revisit that “are you nervous about childbirth” question again, shall we?
WHAT’S YOUR ANSWER NOW?