I’m sure I’ve said this before but it really cannot be said enough: if you’ve yet to have a baby, be forewarned that THE DAY that child is born is THE DAY your life turns upside down and backwards.
There is no easing into it. Your new life is going to hit you smack in the face without you having the first clue it’s coming all SHABLAM! Thwack! How does that feel, huh?
In the beginning, you’re too busy to really realize how different life has become. Once the dust starts to settle, though, you begin to see what you miss.
For example: I really, really miss running with Tim. I miss the long runs over the weekend and the lazy day that would usually follow, along with an early dinner and time on the couch catching up on whatever we recorded throughout the week on the DVR.
I mean, I miss running with Tim in general, but the long run days are what has really been tugging at me lately.
I texted Tim telling him just that and his response was something like, “We’ll get back there…maybe even to somewhere better.”
And he’s right and has the right attitude about it but it’s a hard reality when you’re like, “I want to do X” but then you remember you can’t do X because of the wee little one.
I’ve finally started running again and WOW does it suck to start from square one alllllllll over again. It has been close to a year…maybe nine months or so, since I have run. I had to stop in the second trimester due to serious pelvic pain and it took until now to get going again.
Believe me, this is currently a Herculean feat because all I want to do is sleep, since Kellan is still only sleeping – at most – 3 hours at a time at night. Usually it is something like 3 hours, 2 hours and then two 50 minute to one hour spurts. It’s exhausting.
He has also decided his new wake up time is 4:15 in the morning, thank you crazy ass early summer sunrise.
Anyhow, don’t get me wrong. I love the little boo-boo. I have lots of fun with him and Tim and I are slowly adjusting to the new normal.
But I’d be lying if I said I didn’t miss the old normal.
Right now, there is no balance.
Right now, there is baby. The end.